When grief unexpectedly arrives.
- andrewswesley
- Sep 26, 2024
- 2 min read
Grief is an uninvited guest at the dinner table. One minute, everything was normal. Life was happening as it always did. Then came the phone call. The moment that the entire world came crashing down and the person on the other end of the call told me you had died. How is that even possible? I was certain a mistake had been made. There is no way my Uncle, my protector, my big brother of sorts, my stand-in dad, my cheerleader, my encourager...my Steve, could be gone. I was waiting for the call, saying there was a mistake. The doctors must have been wrong. That call never came.
Grief swoops in and steals the future. It changes the world. Suddenly, everything seems loud, confusing, dim, yet far too bright. Everything is still moving around me. How is that possible? My world stopped the moment you died. How on earth can the rest of the world keep moving? Grief is a thief.
Grief brings with it conflicting emotions of overwhelming sadness and fiery anger. It brought me to my knees and yet made me want to run. Grief swirled around me as I sat on the patio staring into the clouds seeking an answer to my, Why? An answer that I would never receive. Grief produces the most confusing emotions that will never end.
That's just the reality...grief never ends. Grief changes, and we learn to grow our lives around the vast hole grief has left in our lives. Grief never ends. My job now is to learn to live for both of us. Now, the only way to share my life with you is to honor your memory and all you taught me. The only way to keep you alive is to live once again. Grief is such a thief.